Going Home

We got to leave a day early from the hospital.  Poor Ryan had his circumcision this morning (and scratched his face in the process...who can blame him?!).  But things were going good so my doctor gave us the okay.  Of course Ryan did not want to eat after his surgery and it had been awhile so we got some last minute pointers before we left.

Me & Ryan

 Getting ready to get in the car (I would post the one where we left with Ava 4 years ago b/c it is quite a different story -- I looked huge, tired and had not fixed myself up -- lesson learned this time) -- I realize all my posts sound like I am pretty vain and I guess that is somewhat the case since I can't stand photos where I am totally disgusting..sorry!! I'll try not to make too many more comments (key word = try)

 At home that evening, Ava wanted to hold Ryan again.  Such a good big sister.

We did have a little bit of drama tonight with Ava... we were tired from being at the hospital and I was having issues feeding Ryan so was a bit tense and I had asked Ava to calm down.  She flipped out, yelled something along the lines of "I don't like baby Ryan, I want to be a family of 3" and stormed out of my room and slammed the door to her room.  I felt really bad for her because it is huge adjustment for her for me to not be 100% dedicated to her but I know we will have more of these incidents in the near future.  I'm trying to spend as much time with her as I can as well as including her in any things she can help with when it comes to Ryan, and hopefully she'll adjust quickly.  She did come back to my room 10 minutes later and apologize and tell me she did not mean it..that she did love baby Ryan.  And when it came time for bed, he was the only one who got a kiss on the head that night.   We'll see how it goes!